Anonymous writes…

Ok I am a Christain but for the last couple of months I have been contemplating suicide. I have been feeling so lost lately, like I dont matter to people. Know one wants to listen to me. They don’t have time. I guess I have no real in Christ friends. All of my friends as a matter of fact are backstaber. They really don’t care about you, only them selves. I don’t have a single friend at my school who is grounded in Christ, not one. And the Christains at my school don’t do much because they are practically imposible to find. I don’t know, I remember when I was younger, I’m 18. When I was like 14 or 15 I was on fire for Christ telling every one about Him at my jr high school. I even had a nick name, JesusFreak the girl who always talks about God. Now I feel as if I have melted into the background of the world. What am I supossed to do? I have even told my mom I need to go to counseling, but she does not believe me. She does not listen and my sister is so fixed on telling people we have the picture perfect family that she does not see that that picture is slowly being torn from the inside out. What is wrong with me? Most of the time I feel sad, but pretend to be happy. My life feels so empty. I feel so alone and I feel like I can’t take it any more.

Trophy of Grace replies…

My sweet sister,

I am so sorry that you are feeling so lost and alone. I know that can be a miserable feeling. However, this is just for a season my friend. (Ecclesiastes 3:1) Sometimes we will feel alone. It is during those times that we need to draw closer to the Lord, because although we may FEEL alone, we are NOT. Christ is ALWAYS with us. He has promised to never leave or forsake us. (Hebrews 13:5, Joshua 1:5, Genesis 28:15) You have to choose to believe that with all of your heart.

Let me remind you my friend that we are children of faith, not of emotion. We cannot let our fickle emotions lead us around. We have to be lead by the Spirit of God and His Word. That is what we have to give authority over our lives, minds, hearts, and attitudes. We cannot look at our situation through emotional eyes, but through the Word of God. We have to walk by faith, not by sight. If we allow ourselves to meditate on our situations and become overly emotional about it, we could be endanger of following the negative dictations of our emotional state which will only cause us more grief. (Romans 8:12-14, Corinthians 5:7)

Right now you may not have any true Christian friends that you can call on. But you can call on Jesus anytime, anywhere. Don’t focus on what you don’t have right now. Focus on what you do have. You are alive today, which means that God has purpose for your life. (Jeremiah 29:11) He wants to use you. You are His masterpiece. He created you anew in Christ Jesus, so that you can do the good things He planned for you long ago. (Ephesians 2:10) Don’t give up! Keep pressing forward! If you do not get tired of doing what is good, at just the right time you will reap a harvest of blessing. You just can’t give up!(Galatians 6:9)

You are not the only one who is going through this situation. There are other people who are suffering feelings of loneliness too. But our Lord is faithful. He will not allow you to keep going on like this. You just have to do your part, which is to keep trusting Him and drawing close to Him in His word. At just the right time He will bring you godly friends that will help you on your journey. Just be patient though and focus on your relationship with Him above EVERY OTHER. Learn to love Him and then you will truly learn to love yourself and others. (Matthew 6:33, James 4:8)

Go to your pastor or youth leader and tell them what you are going through. If your church has a website look them up and email them or call them. I am sure that they would be willing to help you too. You know that we are here for also. You can email us whenever you’d like. We respond within 24 hours Monday through Friday. Questions received on the weekend are answered on Mondays. But I want encourage to run always FIRST to the Word of God.

You can look up scriptures for specifically what you are going through by looking in your bible’s concordance. You can also go to our ‘Scriptures by Subject’ page and click on the subject that pertains to you.

Here are some scriptures that I think will help you. Please look them up. I will be praying for you my sister.

Joshua 1:9, Psalm 40:1-3, Psalm 139:7-12, Isaiah 41:9-10, Matthew 11:28-30, Matthew 28:20, John 14:23, Hebrews 13:5

Sincerely,

Trophy of Grace

P.s.

Here is a song the Lord just brought to my remembrance for you. It’s Barlow Girls- Never Alone.

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