I’m Afraid I’ve Lost My Connection To God At This Point
Anonymous writes back replying to ‘I love God so much but I’m anorexic and it’s been messing up my relationship with Him’
I really can’t thank you enough for the honest godly advice. I hope y’all know what a blessing you are and how much God is using you in people’s lives. Those chapters in Romans were really powerful to me. But at the same time there was something about them that was so hard to take in as reality. I KNOW God’s word is true. I used to read it and absolutely believe it as if it was written in the sky with fire. But lately when I go to His word to find see His heart and hear what He would say to me, it’s just…paper. Without the Holy Spirit making our hearts see the light and life of the scriptures…they’re just words. I’m afraid I’ve lost my connection to God at this point cause when I pray it feels like I’m talking to thin air and when I go to God’s word my head knows it’s true…but my heart’s not so sure. Right now I just need Him do much and I feel like He ditched me and left me with a book. I love God’s word, but my bible isn’t my savior and right now I need Him so much. The bible says draw near to God and He will draw near to you, but right now I’m trying sooo desperately to draw near to Him and nothing. I’m not expecting to not be anorexic all the sudden or to even not be depressed I just expect Him to let me know He’s there. Please pray for me cause I’m a mess without Jesus Christ and right now it feels like that’s where I’m at.
Trophy of Grace replies…
Thank you sister! All glory goes to God who has given us this desire to serve all of you ladies and to share the Truth of God’s Word with who ever will listen. It is an honor to be used by God to serve you. May the Lord give me His Words to speak to you.
“NOW FAITH is the assurance (the confirmation, the title deed) of the things [we] hope for, being the proof of things [we] do not see and the conviction of their reality [faith perceiving as real fact what is not revealed to the senses].” (Hebrews 11:1 – Amplified)
We believe by faith that God is with us. Sometimes we can’t feel Him, but He is there. We cannot physically see Him, but there is evidence of His presence through all of creation. All we have to do is look around. He is in the sunset. His praises are being sung by the birds of the sky who do no fret because THEY KNOW and TRUST He will provide for them daily. He is in the gentle breeze. He is in the sound of laughing child. His touch and His love is manifested through those who carry the Holy Spirit and that walk by the Spirit.
He has promised to never leave or forsake you. He is not like man that He should lie. We can take His promises to the bank and they will always clear. He is faithful and by faith you must receive His promises, no matter what you’re feeling. Remember that our feelings are fickle, one minute we feel one way and the next we can feel another. (Hebrews 13:5, Numbers 23:19)
God has been speaking to you sister can’t you see it? May our Lord give you eyes to see and soften your heart to receive what the Holy Spirit has been trying to speak to you. He gave you a warning, to stop destroying your body through 1 Corinthians 3:17. He brought you to this site where you could receive the Truth of His Word clear and direct, so that you could not be confused about the direction that He is giving you.
THE HOLY SPIRIT IS SPEAKING TO YOU!!
He is telling you,
“Get help from those closest you. Repent of your sin and surrender your selfish, addictive, and destructive behavior to Me. I will be your Comforter and Strength. You are not alone! Fear not because I AM with you. Come back to me my child and truly put your trust in Me. I love you and accept you. I will wash you white as snow. I will restore your life and lift you up if you will humble yourself now before me. Do not wait much longer, the enemy longs to kill, steal, and destroy you. Please My child, listen to my voice.”
Now is the time for repentance sister. Do not delay. I know you are scared and confused, because the enemy as blinded you. You have been deceived. Jesus Christ, the Holy Spirit has not left you. You have to fight through this. You have to get help from other believers closest to you and you need to seek professional help for the anorexia.
I have sent an email to our entire ministry team to pray for you. I love you sister and I am believing that our Lord who started a good work in you is going to complete it. I believe He is calling you back to Himself. He is longing for an intimate relationship with you.
I will continue to pray for you.
Sincerely,
Anonymous replies…
Hey, I just wanted to thank you for all the awesome advice! I’ve been SO totally blind to God’s grace and presence in my life lately because even when I knew how much I needed Him I wasn’t done trying to just make myself better. I wanted God’s presence in my life but I wasn’t willing to trust Him enough to give Him everything. I knew I needed His help to get better, but I felt like I couldn’t go to Him until I was better. I was willing to try ANYTHING except just letting go completely trusting Him. One of my friends who’s also a sr at my school and big sister in Christ showed me Exodus 14:14 which basically just says God will fight for you, you just have to be still. All the restlesness and fear wouldn’t be there if I had faith in God’s love for me and His power over everything I’ve been wrestling with. Once I believed that, God came through for me completely! I have full confidence now that I can take Him at His word reguarless of my situation and rest in His perfect peace through faith even when He feels far away. I still have my e.d but I am doing my best to give that part of my life to Jesus. I’m not sure how to make it go away and I know it won’t happen overnight, but I’m trying. So anyways, thank you for everything!!!
Trophy of Grace replies…
Sister with e.d.
Your welcome! I am glad that you are having some break throughs. Our Lord is always faithful.
I still strongly urge to seek professional help with the eating disorder because this is not something you will be able to overcome over night and on your own. You need counsel and accountability.
I will continue to pray for you.
Sincerley,
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