I’m Just Tired Of Being Stressed Out And Being Ashamed
So..I started at a new school. Much harder then my old school. I am a sophmore btw. I havn’t had the education that these kids have had, so I’m having trouble with my grades. My mom is a guidance counselor so she is very strict about my grades. I know if i don’t get good grades that I will have trouble getting into college because it is so competitive these days. But i feel like this is stressing me out way more then it’s supposed to. This is leading to thoughts of me thinking I will be come homeless. I want to be a missionary but my mom says i need a CAREER and that if i don’t have any money, i can’t make a difference. I have heard other wise..and that all we need is Jesus’s love. I am interested in medicine and maybe want to be a missionary-doctor. But this grades stuff is really getting to me. I sometimes tell myself that this life is only temporary and that even IF i do be homeless in the future or have financial problems in the future.. which i am not planning on happening..but if it does..it doesn’t matter because this life is only temporary. I am surrounded by kids that get much higher grades then i do and have had much better education then i have had and i am tired of being ashamed of myself because I am not like them. I’m tired of my teachers looking down on me just because I got a bad grade on something. And i don’t know what to do…My mom being a guidance counselor put me in all honors and 1 AP class but this school has much higher level education then my old school had. Part of me feels like I can handle these classes and another part of me feels like i can’t handle them. I’ve heard a song that says “When i don’t measure up to much in this life, I’m a treasure in the arms of Christ.” But I feel like it can’t relate to this situation. I’m just tired of being stressed out and being ashamed of my self with these grades.
His Precious Gift replies…
My precious sister,
It is so exciting to start a new school! In our minds we have all these expectations and goals that we want to accomplish and when we start a new season in our live’s, as you have done, sometimes we feel frustrated and anxious. But let me assure you first off that your heart is in the right place. Even though you are going through a time of adjustment and decision making, always remember that if you seek Him first He will always guide you.
You are a child of God, you need to take your eyes off the problem and focus on Him and you will realize He’s alreadyÂ given you the Victory! God has a will, plan, and purpose for your life see Jeremiah 29:11-13. He will accomplish it if we obey Him. We will have difficulty in our live’s for a reason even when we don’t understand why we have to remember Roman 8:28 says “And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.
I know you are concerned with your grades and what the future will bring but God says in His word that “The thief comes ONLY to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full”. John 10:10. As I was praying and asking the Lord for a Word for you He keep giving me that scripture. Satan will steal your peace, kill your dreams, and destroy your future ONLY if you let him.
Let me tell you a little story: The desire of my heart has always been to help people so I started going to nursing school but I felt the same way you feel now. I used to say to myself, “I am not smart enough” and “I will never measure up to the rest of the class”. My grades were not great. So one day I started praying and God gave me a scripture that totally change my life, it was I Cor.2:16 the apostle Paul is teaching the church and it says “For who has known the mind of the Lord that he may instruct him? But we have the mind of Christ.” From that moment on every time I had a test and every time I felt the enemy trying to oppress me I would quote that scripture over and over. Sometimes the students would laugh at me because they thought I was talking to myself, but little did they know I was telling the enemy that I was a child of the Most High and that Gods Word is powerful!
My sister it was incredible my grades got better, I graduated with honors, and I was the only person in the history of the school to get 100% in finals!!! And God has blessed my life in that field.
I tell you this because I want you to find your own Word from God just for you. Ask him and He will tell you and you will feel the same peace and assurance that everything is going to be alright.
I will keep you in my prayers. Think of yourself achieving each of your goals and doing the things God has put on your heart to do.
Psalm 20:4 “May he give you the desires of your heart and make all your plans succeed.”
Love you Bunches,