I’m Worried That This May Be Clinical Depression
Hi. I just stumbled across this website in my search for some friendly Christian websites. For a long time I have felt so full of anger, discontentment, bitterness, and spiritual emptiness. I love my Lord and I long to serve Him! I have a lovely Christian boyfriend, a fantastic group of friends, and a family who lovingly support me through everything. But for some reason I feel unable to share the depth of my pain with anyone. Itâ€™s not like there has been anything really traumatic in my recent past. I just cannot understand my consistent depression. Itâ€™s not all the time, I can forget when Iâ€™m busy and enjoying myself. But as soon as I slow down I remember. Iâ€™m worried that this may be clinical depression as it runs in my family. I cry a lot, and worryingly have many thoughts of self harm or suicide. I know I would never do either, but if itâ€™s in my heart then surely something is wrong?! Iâ€™m afraid to talk to anyone but I donâ€™t know why. I have a wonderful life and I want to live it to the full but this is preventing that. Please help me.
Thank you and God bless. x
Sweet friend, my heart hurts for you. I want to pray for you right now.
Dear Heavenly Father, I pray that you will take away this feeling of depression and grief from my sister. She longs to be free of this burden. Lord, you tell us to cast all of our burdens on YOU because YOU care for us. Please help her to do that. Please search her heart and help her to know where these thoughts are coming from. Please open her eyes to the wealth of your love for her, please keep away the attacks of Satan to discourage her, and please heal her for your glory. In Jesus name, Amen.
First, I want you to know that you are Godâ€™s treasure! He loves you with an endlesss, unfailing love. He longs to fill you with hope and abundant joy.
â€śFor I know the plans I have for you,â€ť declares the LORD, â€śplans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.â€ť ~ Jeremiah 29:11
Sweet friend, I want you to know that this comes from a heart of concern and never, ever condemnationâ€¦ I want to strongly encourage you to seek professional help from a Christian counselor. Do NOT be afraid to talk to someone. I will be the FIRST to admit that I have!! Sometimes you need help, and God uses these people in a great way for him. You can talk to a professional counselor for FREE on the phone now through Focus on the Family at:
1-855-771-HELP (4357) Monday through Friday between 6:00 a.m. and 8:00 p.m. Mountain time.
They also have a page that locates Christian counselors near you, some of whom work for very little payment.
I recommend this because if there is a family history of depression, there may be several things that they can suggest to help this depression that might be out of your control right now.
Donâ€™t lose hope! Donâ€™t despair! Godâ€™s POWER is made perfect in our WEAKNESS! Iâ€™m pulling for you, sweet friend. We all are. We love you and we are praying for you in earnest.
â€śâ€¦that you, being rooted and grounded in love, may be able to comprehend with all the saints what is the width and length and depth and heightâ€” to know the love of Christ which passes knowledge; that you may be filled with all the fullness of God. Now to Him who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that works in us, to Him be gloryâ€¦â€ť Ephesians 3:17-21
in His precious, unfailing love,